giving

2 Corinthians 8:7 "But just as you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us—see that you also excel in this grace of giving."

Giving and Grace.... these are two of the most difficult words to fully grasp, in my opinion. It seems like it would be easier to understand these words and their depth since I am in fact doing ministry work. But I find that these two things grace and giving are a constant discovery of God, and who he is. The Lord is eagerly waiting to give to those who ask, and bestows unsurpassed grace upon all who call on Him. He continues to be faithful to us, taking care of us, and yet still we doubt. He's already paid our ransom on the cross and still... He gives us more! I know that sometimes I allow my circumstance to determine where my focus is. I realize that I need to guard against that by keeping the focus off of me and onto God. I also realize that in my selfishness I am not giving to anyone. In fact... I am restricting myself and others. This past week I've discovered that when I am having my "me" moments and when I get caught up in the circumstances around me, one of the best things I can do is...give.

It's been a really tough week this week. I worked a lot, and I have a lot left to do for support raising. But right now I am feeling encouraged and renewed. I am excited to see how these next couple of weeks are going to go and how the Lord is going to meet me exactly where I need Him most. Some amazing things have happened these past couple of weeks and the Lord keeps reminding me of how sovereign and great He really is. James is coming in a few days and I am so excited to see him and spend time with him. Plus this weekend is my friends Devon and Justin's wedding! Not to mention it is also James' birthday! So yeah a lot of fun things will be happening around here :) Okay once again it's time for bed... I'm going to try and get up early tomorrow... maybe :)